Sunday, August 9, 2009

Who's Counting Anyways?

OK....I will NOT be making the trip for my 20 year high school reunion in 2 weeks. Part of me wants to go, but the reality is we are not going (for a myriad of unmentionable circumstances that I DO NOT want to get into.) What will I miss??? Well, considering I got "Most Likely To Trip Across The Stage At Graduation"....the odds are they won't be expecting much from me at least. At the 10 year reunion I was 8 1/2 months pregnant...lovely (bloated, hot, swelling feet and can't even blur the edges by throwing back a few cold ones!) Now....another 10 years and I've got LOTS to show for it, but can't imagine sharing anything noteworthy over the loud band, same drunk loud-mouths and abrupt and meaningless chit-chat. Three babies in three years? 11 moves since graduation? Miscarriage? Cancer? Financial problems? Marital stress? The dull hum-drum of 10 years out of the workforce molding young minds in my home? These events are not set around being a get reaquainted type deal...no nothing I have to say would be idle talk for a bunch of snobby folks I was FORCED to be civil to just to fit in back in an era where our hair and our clothes rained supreme. They either don't care or don't want to even listen. I sound VERY cynical...I know, but you did not grow up in my neighborhood. I think the folks I would genuinely like to see...I already see, and the rest probably will just talk about me behind my back about how much weight I've gained, or where I live or something else they deem gossipy enough to stand around and banter about. I'm sitting this one out....life's priorities have changed and 20 years since I used to skip class and get drunk and struggle to fit in have passed me by. My life is now, and I guess the part of me curious to see how screwed up everybody else turned out will just have to be left up to my imagination....or from all the gossip I'll hear AFTER the big event!